Monday, May 31, 2010

When someone just has it in for you.......

most of us are raised knowing that not everyone in life is liking to us....and thats ok!!! its not the end of the world!!!
there are girls at school that might tease or pick on you.....ladies at work that dont particularly like you or are jealous of you!! family members that cause friction in relationships etc etc....

We know its a part of life, and most of understand that just the same way we dont "like" everyone we meet in life, there will always be some that dont like us in return!!

Sometimes its hurtful, other times it doesnt really affect us! The proof though that we are strong and content in who we are, is when poeple are against us in life and it doesnt really get to us!!

Whether people like us or not shouldnt determine who we are.....whether they like the way we dress or look, whether they like our characters or the way we talk should have absolutely NO AFFECT ON US!!!

but the truth is, sometimes it does, sometimes it REALLY does.......
when it really does get to us more is when someone really "has it in for us"...

you know what i mean, that girl or woman who for some reason we cant work out just really doesnt like us, cant stand us or is really really jealous of us....but they dont stop there!!!! their goal/mission in life is to make us miserable, slander our name and character, spread gossip and rumours about us and try to recruit as many people into their little group against us!!!!

Im sure we have all had one or more of those in our lifetime!! im not talking about just your average disagreement with talking about someone who will not stop until they win!!!

Firstly, why are they like this????

there are so many reaosn why they could act this way......

-they are very jealous of you!!! VERY jealous

-they have had a really hard up-bringing and dont know how to treat people!

-they feel threatened by you, maybe they are scared you are going to take their friends, or you have recently joined their family and they dont want you to get all the attention etc..

-they are bored...

-They wish they were you and cant handle the fact they are not!

-They are just not happy in life

etc etc etc..........

whatever the hurts!! and as much as we pretend it doesnt and we put up a brave front.....deep deep inside, we get wounded and sometimes it does so much damage that it makes us put up a wall in any future relationships that we have!! we dont want to get hurt like that again!!

why am i writing this??

because i want to address something that affects us all, and i want to talk about how we can be free and content no matter who is slandering us!!

im not an expert in anyway and i have a LOOOoooooong way to go, but im writing this because its something that i have faced by myself over the last 2 yrs!!
I wont go into what happened and who it was etc...cause thats irrelevant, but i will say this;

when it all first came out that a particular person didnt like me and was spreading rumours and gossip about me, i was hurt to say the least!! i was very hurt and confused because i honestly had done nothing to this person, i respected them and their family and i never went around talking about them etc.....i had no idea why this person had it in for me and i felt very alone as i was living very far from my family and i wanted to be close to them!!

In the beginning i would get very angry whenever i heard their name....and it was really affecting me!! i hated it, cause on one hand i had done nothing wrong and was just totally confused, and on the other hand it was changing who i was and was making me angry and a bit bitter!!!

then oneday i just had enough!!! If i was in the wrong, then fair enough, but because i hadnt done anything.....i no longer wanted to be affected by it all!!

I prayed to God and asked his help, to help me just forgive and forget!! and i really felt compelled to pray for this person, not in a way of "God get them" but rather "God bless them"........

in the begining i didnt really want to pray for them cause i was angry and hurt....but i tried to do it everyday...where i would pray for blessing on their life, to bless their relationships with other people, to help them in their everday life etc etc....and honestly it was the best medicine!!!

Has it changed that not really, in fact it seems worse than before :) but boy has it chan ged me and my attitude!!!

im not joking!!!!
but when you pray for someone that really has it in for you, it may not change them or the situation but it really does change your own heart!!!

I now dont feel anger and hurt about not saying im perfect now and i will never be affected, its something i will have to work on all my life...but my heart really has changed!!

I feel such freedom and joy in my life and it shows on my face! I feel confident and secure in who I am in God and as a person!!! i feel a love and grace that i havnt felt in a while!!!

People can say what they like about you, but words dont have to stick on your character and change who you are!!! we dont have to believe what they say and let it affect us!! we no longer need to feel the weight and burdons of other peoples anger!!!

If you are going thru a hard time, bring it before God and let him hold you and make you stronger!! It will be hard in the begining but with all your might, be silent....dont slander them or gossip about them to other people, dont stoop to their level!! let God defend you because He does such a better job than we do!!! Even if you see no change in your situation, you can still feel total joy and peace.....let God take you to that place where their words dont stick and hurt any longer!!

I challenge you to pray for your enemies/slanderers/gossipers........and see how your heart will change!!

We are in this together :)

Lots of love

Thursday, May 27, 2010

Makeup graduation!! and Basketball grandfinal...all in one night!!

Well the makeup awards nite has come and gone!!!

was it fun??? yeah
was it well organised?? not really :)

it was ok but nothing like what it was made out to be!! and lots of people didnt even bother going!! plus the 2 makeup teachers i had teaching me, one of them has left and the other one was in Queensland so i didnt even get to see them!!

It was an awards nite for hairdressing, makeup and beauty but i felt like it was mainly about hairdressing cause the people MC'ing the nite were the hairdressing teachers...and most of the display photos on the wall were hair entries!!

But, i did have fun and i was excited to see one of my photographic makeup entries on the wall :)

here are some pics of the night!!

Nick (my sis in-laws fiance), my mum in-law and Emmanuel


he was proud of me!

so was my mum in-law :)

bit blurry.....the top 3 of our class :)  with all the hair display photos behind us!!

my sis in-law Raffaella and me with my certificate (i  passed with a distinction)

3 of us again!

Raffaella and me....if you look between our heads but up the top there is a photo of her (i did her makeup) next to the pic with blue in it! yay my name was on the wall :)

i did a quick makeup job on her for the night! this is in the car on the way there!

YAY!! see my name?? HOLLIE :) i was so happy this picture made the display wall!! hahaha

us :)

going up to get my certificate!

yeah i know, i had chewing gum in my mouth and was trying to stick it to my gums :) hahaha

focus Hollie.....focus!!


me and nick!

love this photo!

my crazy face in the car....its all over, now to rush to Emmanuel's basketball grand final...he is there by now and we are late!!

one of his mates "Scott" mucking around!!

playing defence by himself :) hehehe (not really)


we were watching on and shouting our heads off!!

photo of the quick makeup i did on her (oh, pretty eyes)

cute couple!

the team! Emmanuel is number 23 (Michael Jordans number of course)

yay he got a trophy

big night for both of us!

proud mumma

they came second, but it was a very close game and was great to watch!!

sorry i havnt been blogging for a while!!

ive been VERY busy with work. At Estee Lauder we are having another management change as my counter manager is leaving (well has left already) so i have been covering a lot of her shifts.....i worked the last 10 days straight and if i didnt take today off it wouldve been 20 days straight without a day off!!!! so i took this day off, knowing the next 10 days will be full on (between my 2 jobs)

Plus on the 7th, 8th and 9th i have training (and get lots of products hopefully)

so, more blogging to come :)


Sunday, May 16, 2010


To my amazing husband and best friend...Emmanuel!!!
this is dedicated to you,
I love you so much, and since having you in my life, i feel more complete and more comfortable in who i am and what i want to achieve in life!
with you, i feel i can take on the world!!

This is a montage of the 3 years we have been together (nearly 2 yrs of marriage).....from when we met until now.....and gosh i have changed!!! I look like a totally different person :)

Ti Amo Bello

Wednesday, May 12, 2010

My portfolio from Makeup course 2009

Here is some of the makeup work i did in my certificate 2 last year!!

i finished the course last december.....but on the 24th May this year we have the awards night!!

i cant wait to catch up with all the makeup girls and see who gets awards etc....

will be a great night and lots of fun!!

so i hope you enjoy the much as i enjoyed doing the makeup!!

its funny though, looking at the pics now (5-6 months down the track), i can see so many mistakes, and things im not happy with....we are always developing as makeup artists!! and this was my first EVER work in makeup....i never even knew how to do my own makeup propely before this course!!

Before Bridal look

After...."Mature" aged bridal look

Before "Cup day", glamour look


Before Glamour look


Before Catwalk "sunkissed on the beach" look


Before "Glamour look"


more Glamour

Before natural/day look


Before Bridal look




Before black and white photography


Before natural/day look




Catwalk :)

Random shot during class.....Stacey (on left) is one of our teachers!!

Sue-Lin and me....during our last day of class!!

Hope you enjoyed the photos.....i will try and take some more photos on the awards night!!
cant wait....2 more weeks!!!

Love HollieD